Spring cleaning

by spiceaholic on March 27, 2010

Hello my awesome readers!

I hope all is well with you – I have some major catching up to do in my Google reader!

Remember what I said the other day about spring being one of my favorite seasons?  It’s a time of change and I think I want to use this opportunity to make some changes for myself.

No, don’t worry, no more blog changes.

I haven’t been feeling 100% myself lately.  I can’t explain what it is, but I know something’s off.  As you know, I recently turned 30, and I wanted to start off this new decade in the right direction.  The problem is, I’m not quite sure what direction that is.  There are things I want to do, but for various reasons (financial, mostly) I can’t and I feel stuck because of that.  I know that’s part of the issue, but there’s something else that’s eluding me.

As you also know, I’ve been making a half-assed attempt to improve my eating and exercise.  I know, half-assed will get me nowhere.  I do feel like the little I’m doing is better than not doing anything.  And that while my eating isn’t stellar, just taking the pics and attempting to track makes me more aware.  It certainly makes me more aware when I choose not to take a pic or track something — I know that I’m choosing not to be honest with myself or with you.

So I’m thinking something has to change.  It shouldn’t be this hard or painful to want improve my health.  Okay, well maybe that’s not quite the right sentiment. I guess what I’m trying to say is that sometimes it feels like I’m a square peg trying to fit into a round hole.  What I’m doing is not the right fit for me.  So do I keep trying to make myself fit or do I find something that fits me instead?  Is it better to try to play by someone else’s rules and fall short constantly or better to make up my own rules that work for me and allow me to thrive?

I can also apply this analogy to other parts of my life, not just the getting healthier thing.  And I probably should, hence the “spring cleaning” theme.  I need to get rid of all the negative thoughts and energy that are cluttering me up inside.

I just don’t know where or how to start.

{ 5 comments… read them below or add one }

Ameena March 27, 2010 at 4:46 pm

Turning 30 is such a big deal! I know what you mean about feeling like something is “off.” I feel like that sometimes too.

With regards to getting healthier…you will find something that works for you. It is so frustrating to read about the 1 million different plans out there that worked for this person or that person. Just because it worked for them though, it doesn’t necessarily mean it will work for you. Trying to make it work for you probably isn’t the best strategy.

I’m here for you if I you need anything! I am not an expert in anything but I can listen pretty well. 🙂

Have a great Saturday!

Christie {Honoring Health} March 27, 2010 at 5:25 pm

Hey Lady,

As you know, I have been down this very same path as you. Why doesn’t this diet work or why does this one work for losing 50lbs but then nothing. I think that each of us has a way of eating that works and the only way to get there is by listening to your intuition and following it. Solve the problems that lead you to not care for your body in the best way you can. Love yourself enough to really change. Get to the root of the problem. That is the thing with diets and plans, they convince us that we are not wise enough to make these choices for ourselves. We are, lady, we are.

{{{HUGS}}} I’m here for support anytime you need it.

Biz March 27, 2010 at 7:11 pm

Every one is different and I think you need to find what fits you, not trying to fit into something that already doesn’t fit. It is hard – I still struggle on a daily basis – I hope you find what works for you!!

Hugs!

katecooks March 29, 2010 at 3:48 pm

this feels almost impossible unless i have a lot of motivation! with so many delicious, high-calorie options in the world, it can be hard to eat the right foods that will lead to weight loss — even if those are delicious in their own way as well. i definitely think you should figure out your own rules and what works for you — otherwise you will be miserable trying!!

spiceaholic March 29, 2010 at 9:11 pm

Thank you, everyone! It’s so good to have such support from you.

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