Hello my awesome readers!
I hope all is well with you – I have some major catching up to do in my Google reader!
Remember what I said the other day about spring being one of my favorite seasons? It’s a time of change and I think I want to use this opportunity to make some changes for myself.
No, don’t worry, no more blog changes.
I haven’t been feeling 100% myself lately. I can’t explain what it is, but I know something’s off. As you know, I recently turned 30, and I wanted to start off this new decade in the right direction. The problem is, I’m not quite sure what direction that is. There are things I want to do, but for various reasons (financial, mostly) I can’t and I feel stuck because of that. I know that’s part of the issue, but there’s something else that’s eluding me.
As you also know, I’ve been making a half-assed attempt to improve my eating and exercise. I know, half-assed will get me nowhere. I do feel like the little I’m doing is better than not doing anything. And that while my eating isn’t stellar, just taking the pics and attempting to track makes me more aware. It certainly makes me more aware when I choose not to take a pic or track something — I know that I’m choosing not to be honest with myself or with you.
So I’m thinking something has to change. It shouldn’t be this hard or painful to want improve my health. Okay, well maybe that’s not quite the right sentiment. I guess what I’m trying to say is that sometimes it feels like I’m a square peg trying to fit into a round hole. What I’m doing is not the right fit for me. So do I keep trying to make myself fit or do I find something that fits me instead? Is it better to try to play by someone else’s rules and fall short constantly or better to make up my own rules that work for me and allow me to thrive?
I can also apply this analogy to other parts of my life, not just the getting healthier thing. And I probably should, hence the “spring cleaning” theme. I need to get rid of all the negative thoughts and energy that are cluttering me up inside.
I just don’t know where or how to start.